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Surgery update.

Hello everyone. I wanted to make a post on the progress of my umbilical hernia surgery but things went way sideways for me as usual. I just can’t catch a break. My surgeon was going to fix my tummy muscles since having children has spread them apart and makes me have a belly no matter what I do and fix my umbilical hernia too so that when I work out I don’t land in the er having severe pain because the fat has gone through my hernia causing me pain. Anyways as he opened me up he saw that my hernia was way larger than anticipated and he also found a second smaller hernia that he just sewed together and then he put the mesh in and it took much longer than expected so he couldn’t do my belly muscles at this time. He did make it clear that in about a year he would be willing to do the muscle surgery if I can not repair it with exercise. I pray exercise gives me what I’m looking for because this surgery is unbelievable with the pain for the first four to five days. It hurts to talk breathe and move in any way. Hurts to cough sneeze or potty. I’m much better now but my body is having an allergic reaction to the glue he used to see me back together so now my tummy is enflamed red itchy and just so sore. I’m having pains in my appendix area and went to see the surgeon today and my PCP and was given steroids by my PCP but the surgeon said not to take them to take Benadryl instead. What a mess. I’m just suffering so much. He says because he had to see some of my muscles together that might be the pains I’m having by my appendix so we will wait till Friday and see what the pains are about. Let’s pray it’s not my appendix and they burst or something crazy. I had three appointments today back to back so I’m really exhausted and having the kids who don’t acknowledge that I’m not doing so well isn’t helpful either. But for now I’m going to bed on my Benadryl and pray that the healing happens faster and properly. I’m just tired and ready to give up all together. I have fought so hard to just get a home and some stability for my kids and all these things keep happening to me and I’m just burnt out. Pray for me please I really need some positivity and good vibes sent my way. Thank you all for reading about me. I greatly appreciate your interest and prayers and concerns. Have a great night all!

Well needless to say another complication from surgery has come to light. So when I woke from surgery my mouth hurt like where your wisdom teeth would come in. I thought maybe the tube had prongs to hold it still and the anesthesia people just had placed one of the prongs on the wrong area and it would go away. Well it didn’t and I ended up seeing my dentist because I had no clue why my jaw was killing me so badly and I thought maybe an abscess. I see him and he tells me that it’s from surgery that when they put the tube in my throat they chipped my bone causing this pain and now I have to see an ENT or oral surgeon whomever can get it taken care of. It’s called something specific I just can’t think of it right now. Anyways I’m suffering tremendous jaw pain and taking Motrin around the clock as every five hours it’s work off and I have to bare to deal with the extra hour to take it again. It’s unreal. I’m seeing the ENT in the morning after weeks and weeks one this I can’t wait for them to fix it. I shall update anything relating to my surgery on this post page. Please send positive vibes and prayers my way. I truly can’t stand the pain anymore and I may even have strep and the flu on top of it all as my youngest was just swabbed positive for it yesterday. Ugh! Thanks for taking time to read my thoughts. Have a Blessed day everyone!

I can’t seem to get this to work for me.

I have purchased a domain from WordPress almost a year ago and I was directed to get the jetpack app so I could control my domain from there or so I thought? I have been posting blog posts and photos to jetpack and was under the impression they would automatically be on my domain through WordPress and boy I guess I am so wrong. I’m not sure what to do at this point since I haven’t even used my WordPress really and the year subscription, I paid for is almost up and all the chatter about how simple and self-explanatory were so wrong. I just wanted something simple like the Jetpack so I can go in and add blog posts and photos as life moves forward and possibly add a link to my social media accounts and a donate link but for whatever reason none of this has gone according to what I was under the impression how simple this would be, and it has not been so easy. I had even spoken to a few reps and was not able to set up as easily as they suggested. I am not very literate with the inner workings and the language of computers so maybe i misunderstood what i was to do and then i was even going to hire someone to create my site for me so it can be set up as I needed it to be but I was told that could turn into a whole situation and be charged more and more and take the risk of having my info out there or something? I don’t own anything so idk what anyone would get from me besides my bills, but it made me nervous enough that i opted out of that too. I just wanted a website I could blog regularly as things happen to us and I did want to Vlog, and I certainly didn’t want to have it on my YouTube pages, but I am now reconsidering. Nothing I posted on Jetpack has gone over to my WordPress. If anyone has any advice, I would greatly appreciate it if you could please comment what my best options are that would be great. Thank you in advance. Have a blessed day!!

I’m so sensitive and emotional

I’m such an emotionally connected person. I feel so connected to others and that has me on edge so much. I feel like I have been crying over everything lately. I have been able to ask for permission to leave items at my childhood best friend’s place of rest. I am there so much but didn’t want to be disrespectful and leave things without asking first. Needless to say I was told it’s okay to leave items and I have been as I miss my friend and more than usual lately. Him and his brothers were like our little street family. Growing up at that time we would leave our house after school and have to be home when the street lights came on as that was our rule other than that we didn’t have boundaries and stuff so we often were on that Street where most of the boys lived. Or the ones we liked. Anyway my friend has been gone for 22 years now and it’s still so raw like I have never gotten closure and haven’t been able to heal fully from his passing. He had joined the Air Force and left this state to begin his new life and was in an unfortunate accident and was taken away from this world so incredibly young. He was 20. I just can’t believe he is gone just gone. Feel broken like there is so much he had to offer this world and so many things that have been left unsaid. He was my friend and he truly meant so much more to me and he definitely felt that way too. We were just in different paths at that time and we knew that. I can recall so many memories of him and his smile his laugh his walk even how he would sit and watch us all and laugh and smile with us. I remember things I probably didn’t even think that much about, back then, as I was so young and him too. So much to process. I feel like he is a part of my soul family and look forward to meeting him and seeing him and laughing and talking to him again one day. I have been driving and I think about a question and the next song that plays sorta relates to my question and I wonder if that’s some kind of connection or strange thing I can’t understand right now. I’m not sure. But I do know that I feel connected to him and wish he would come to me in a dream or some that I can see him and talk about and remember the dream the next day. I will continue to spend time and visit him and sit with him at his resting place and give him some company and talk about stuff that happens but somehow I have to know why my feelings are so strong and what they are or mean. I feel like I’m the one person besides his mom that spends time with him at his resting place and I don’t know why because he truly is/was an incredible person and an amazing friend and more.

Photo op

Good morning everyone! I am going to tell you about how I take my own family pics and how when my sister came in she paid for someone to take pics for us and how the two are a lot alike. So, I have taken my kids to a park or an outdoor area and have used my camera on my phone in portrait mode and have gotten some really amazing shots of my kids that I can then take to a store and have printed as big or small as I would like them. I will post some pics from the photos of the paid professional who did them and some of the photos I took myself. Obviously the ones I did myself are from a little bit ago but and the pictures from the pro are recent since my sister was just in a few weeks ago. Taking photos myself makes the most sense to me if I’m just taking pictures of my kids since they grow and change so fast I would be taking pictures a lot more. Anyways when I’m doing them myself it’s easier because I’m not on a time limit or have a schedule to keep to. I can take my time getting everyone dressed and out the door. I tend to promise they can play at the park afterwards so they will stay off the ground and clean and neat until my photos are done. I have taken them to the playground and to local parks for the colors of the grass, slides and equipment and even the fall foliage a few times. Once we are dressed and ready and we get to the location I usually grab a nice blanket or whatever props we are going to use for those pics and take a walk to a nice open area to start and I take a few pics in the open and then move to say a tree and take pics under it and next to it in different poses. Once my son wanted his done as Spider-Man so I allowed it since I was taking them and he really loved Spider-Man at that time. Anyways. When we are done there is when I would start walking towards the playground as once my kids see that they tend to want to run off and play so this way if they do I already have some shots completed. As we walk if I see a log or nice flowers or something like that I stop and take a few shots there too. At the playground I try to go with bright colored equipment and pose next to or on those like slides and monkey bars and so on. I have take swing pics of the kids in the air from being positioned low so the shot is them in the blue sky but that definitely take lots of pictures because their faces change so I tend to take many many shots and then go in and choose which ones came out the best and delete the ones that didn’t come out well. It definitely takes patience on everyone’s part as the kids want to play and run but it’s not too bad because they have the promise to hold on to that they can play afterwards. As far as I can tell pros may have experience and expensive cameras and stuff but I certainly can’t afford that myself so taking them myself in portrait mode on my phone saves me money and my sanity because we aren’t in a rush to get the shots because you pay for the photos and time with pros. I have also purchased one of those tripod stands for my phone that comes with a blue tooth remote camera button so I could set up and take pics of myself with the kids too. I have also taken many photos in the house. When taking indoor photos I have purchased backgrounds from Amazon for around $13 for that Holiday or season especially in the colder months as I would rather take pics inside. Plus, I can take my time and make clothing changes and start with one child at a time until all are dressed and ready to take pics of all of them together. As long as you have decent lighting and room or space in your home it’s really inexpensive to buy a background to hang and take pics using inside. I will add an indoor picture too just to give you an example. As a single parent I try to make ends meet and I love to have many photos of my growing children on my walls. So having photos of them is a must and paying a pro to take them is not always an option so this is a great alternative for me. Thanks for reading and I hope this helps some parents and you give it a try and see if this works for you too! Have a great day!!

This is inside with a background and lighting.

This was a shot I got of them being lovey.

This was same day as my son wanted to be Spider-Man

This is the most recent professional photos.

Trying to have a side hustle

Everybody good morning. I hope to find everyone well. I am on my way to do a pop-up kids consignment. I have washed cleaned and hung and tagged all of my kids stuff that doesn’t fit or they never wore and I am going to try to make some extra money to pay my rent, because Lord knows I struggle paying my rent so much, it would be so much cheaper for me to move into a home that I owned and have $600 mortgage rather than pay double that for House) that’s not even mine. With that being said I am very excited and hope that I sell a lot of my items. I certainly don’t price high. I think the highest priced clothing item is $10 And the highest priced equipment like baby swings stuff like that is $30 so I don’t think I have anything with me today that’s over $30 so I’m hoping that I make some decent money I really could use it my girls want to do cheerleading that cost money my son wants to play baseball that cost money my van is broken and I have to drive my kids to these extracurricular activities and that is just not easy to do and because I don’t have any friends I can’t ask anyone to take us or take my kids so that doesn’t help but hopefully this goes well for me. Please say a little prayer and thanks in advance for reading my post. Hope you all have a wonderful day, stay safe and healthy.

My favorite drink is…

What is your favorite drink?

I’m just going to answer this quick. My favorite drink is Dunkin Donuts Iced Coffee with butter pecan flavor. Liquid sugar and cream!! Yummy, it’s so good! I would drink it daily if I could. But I really can’t afford it right now and Dunkin stopped selling those half gallons of iced coffee on the grocery store so I just go without. I wish they would sell it at the grocery stores again.

Daily experience

Hi again. So the reality of how and why so many things seem to happen to me. After having my van break I was just in a bad place emotionally and then it just seems to get even worse. What happens to me is hard to believe a lot of the time but yet here it is… The following day I am getting my eight year old son onto his van for school and as he drives off I decided to just stand on my porch for a few minutes before continuing to get the girls ready for school and here comes a car literally flying down the street. Right behind it comes another car flying down right behind it. The cars get to the corner at the bottom of the road and I hear a gunshot or what definitely sounded like a gunshot. At first I thought no… can’t be a gunshot it was a car backfire or something and in seconds after I hear a woman screaming Oh My God OhMy God Help Help I immediately called the police because clearly it was definitely a gunshot I heard and the call goes to answering system and then they answer. I explain what happened and they said they are aware and sending someone. Asked me questions I didn’t have the answers to and then the dispatcher says I don’t want to make you upset or frustrated and he hangs up on me. Here the police show up and that’s it. They were securing the scene for the ambulance to come through. Then the ambulance arrived and transported the victim to the ER and start taping off the street. I’m completely beside myself at this moment because all the kids are heading out the door for school and there’s a shooting!! I just cannot believe this! I return to getting my pre schoolers off to school to get them out of the house and away from here. This has certainly rocked me and I’m in fear for my kids and my own safety at this point. I leave take them to school and return with the baby and then an office walks up the street and is looking for homes with cameras on their houses. He sees my wireless and starts to say something about it and I told him it’s not charged so it’s not collecting anything because it’s not on. (I have to charge both of my wireless cameras on the front and back porch of the house). The officer says that a man has a gunshot to his leg and is being treated and no further information at this time. They had the street taped off until noon and this happened at 7:30am and then the news reports that there was an accidental shooting that occurred as someone had accidentally shot themselves in the leg. That the public is safe. That was obviously a LIE as to not send the public into a panic. I am also hearing that all the stores on the square in town are being robbed at night so I feel that this is only getting worse and worse. Eventually the great Country will be destroyed by all these crimes being committed and the tax payers will be paying much more to keep these people in jail. It’s such a shame. It still seems so unreal that this kind of stuff is happening here and that it’s even happening at all around here. Not sure what the rest of the situation is because it’s not being spoken of but it’s very scary and I just wish we could move away to a safer and better place. I just don’t know how or why I seem to have so many things happen and almost daily. I feel like I need an aura cleanse or some kind of positive energy intervention. It’s like my bloodline had done something in their past and that bad karma or whatever is affecting me and my family with all the negative things. I feel that any prayers or cleansing would be greatly appreciated if anyone would like to say a prayer for us. Anyways that’s the update on daily happenings. As far as my van goes it’s broken and likely for good. The timing belt/chain is most likely what’s wrong with it and it may have warped or damaged something that makes the motor run when it broke and it is leaking oil because the gaskets are blown or something. I’m just so disappointed that we finally get into a home and that is just so important for us and even struggling to pay my rent is not enough because now my van is out of commission and most likely for good. I just don’t know what to do. We could use some positive energy. Hope everyone is having a better day/week/month/year than I/we are. Stay safe everyone. I appreciate you taking the time to read my daily experiences.

Having Help

Hello again. I am just going to express some of my thoughts and feelings quick because I’m not sure many people understand why it’s so hard to be an adult and do what you have to do with kids and being a single parent. I tried to explain that many people whom have kids have family or friends they can trust and depend on to watch their children. Even if they only have one person that they can count on randomly watching their kids it’s better than no one and not at all. Just going to the store for a few items with the kids is such a hard time and stressful experience. When you hear the expression “It Takes a Village “ it is so true. One of the very reasons I wanted to have a big family is because this way my kids have each-other to help one another. I have one sister but because she lives so far away I can’t just have her sit with the kids while I run to the store or errands. Having all of them and say having to physically take everyone out to go into the pharmacy for three minutes is way too stressful and overwhelming. Or running into the grocery store for milk and bread turns into a whole other thing with kids wanting stuff I can’t afford or running around or fighting with each other or bumping into strangers because they are not paying attention. It’s just a lot. I hear some people complain that their mom or dad or family is to involved in their lives and they hate it I often say or think to myself you have no idea how lucky you are to have that. Think of how hard things would be if you didn’t have that. Most of the time their family that is in their business is only doing it because they care and want what’s best for them. I wish I had that. I wish I could do so many things that just seem way out of reach for me. I feel like by the time I can actually gain some ground in life I will be too old to actually enjoy anything. My credit score has dropped for unknown reasons (maybe because I paid the minimum payment for the last few months?) or because I have had to use them more than normal? Idk but I have to start looking for a new place soon because I can’t stay here much longer so when my lease is up I’m going to have to move out and pray we don’t end up on the street with the economy like it is and now housing being far few and in between because of all the immigration. I’m so worried about everything. I have been on the list for housing choice vouchers in a few different areas but not sure if I’m even going to get that before my lease is up. I could really use some prayers. Thanks for taking the time to read this and I’m sorry if my life often seems like a negative energy I wish it wasn’t that way too. Be safe and stay healthy!

One day at a time…

Hello there. I wanted to write an update sort of or just a little of what’s happening with me or what’s on my mind lately. I have been under the weather so to speak as my family has been sick since just before Christmas. It seems as though we are just getting virus after virus and they linger for a long time too. Anyways, I have been able to try to rest since I’m so sick and actually watch some television for once and as I watch these reality shows or my kids watch reality kids shows I see how discouraging and disconnected they all are to the real world. I certainly can’t relate to them and their lavish lifestyle and it’s so upsetting for my kids and unrealistic for them to think that’s how life is supposed to be. Every single show all of them live in these huge million dollar homes and have perfect cars and they almost all have zero family photos on their walls or anything that makes them seem real. I try to explain to my kids that they can’t just make a video and be like the shows they watch. Explaining that all those shows have people working for them editing and scripting their videos. They also have a crew following them around doing the recording that they are not walking around trying to record themselves. Of course I’m mom so they don’t believe me at all. I also watched some that just make me wonder if they even think about the money they are throwing out the door? I mean One Of their private jet trips could potentially buy a decent home or even a few decent homes for someone who doesn’t have the ability to buy their own home. I mean even one shopping trip could buy so many used vehicles for people that otherwise wouldn’t be able to have a vehicle for transportation to work or school. So many people struggle and to watch a lot of videos of people just spending needlessly is so disturbing. I wonder if any of them see a homeless person and offer them anything? I’m saying a meal or a coffee? Not necessarily a house or car but even a ten dollar bill or if they look down on them and assume they are bad people because of their situation? I don’t have the answer to that but I think if those who have the wealth looked down on those who don’t then one day they will have to answer to a higher power and in their next life maybe they wouldn’t be so wealthy and see how it truly feels to be judged and looked down on due to their circumstances. I mean I know they worked for their wealth or most of them did as some may have had it given to them by their parents or whatever. I just would like more options for my kids to see life differently and not set such high expectations. My six year old has been asking for about two years to go to Disney and I keep trying to explain that when she watches these stars go to Disney they have guides and people who plan their whole trip and they don’t have to worry about anything because they have plenty of money to have and buy whatever they want and stay at lavish hotels and go to spas and eat at fine restaurants and they truly enjoy their experiences having no limit on spending and a crew to make their plans perfect. They don’t go to Disney the same as we would go (if ever that was even possible) as they go there to truly enjoy their experience we would go and have to choose between one thing or another as we don’t have money to throw away like that. But she believes truly that Disney is magical and she would be treated like a Princess and that it would all be smooth and exciting the entire time. I just let her keep her fantasy and ultimately agree with her and say one day we will have to go there but I know that’s never going to happen. She doesn’t know that the reality is that I fought so hard to get my credit score high and that having all the bad stuff happen and now living in a place that I can’t afford has caused me to have to use my credit cards to buy food for them and gas and stuff making my payments higher and now my interest is higher and it’s like dominos. All I really wanted was to get into a home of my very own in NC and even explaining that my mortgage would be half of the rent I have to pay making it possible for me to pay for other stuff and bills but nothing went according to plan and here I am once again kicked back into the ditch that I feel I will never get out of. I scratch and crawl to get ahead and one action (landlord selling the home we lived in) resulted in many reactions that I can barely keep up with. I don’t think people who have family to help them or people who have a home of their own realize how lucky they really are. I wondered how some people could complain their their parents or siblings or what have you are in their lives or always being there etc and how annoying it is and I just say to them you have no idea how lucky you are to have family that is there to talk to or to help you or to call upon when you are down and out or need guidance or what have you. There’s so many things I see happening and how television is so different from when I grew up and damaging it is to kids and sets their expectations way off. Sure it’s great to dream and have high hopes but if things don’t turn out that way you certainly need to be grounded or have the ability to get back up and push forward and not let it all get you so down that you have no strength to push ahead. Hoping that I eventually get to a place where we can feel secure and not have to worry so much. I couldn’t imagine a life where I didn’t have to feel so lost and alone. But I will keep pushing forward for my kids and try my best to teach them to be the best version of themselves always no matter how hard life really is at that moment in time. May you all be blessed with health, happiness and love in your lives always.

My girl at her school friends birthday party

They were all so into seeing how others live (my baby hates clothes when he’s home). This is them happy and content.

I’m not very political but…

How have your political views changed over time?

First let me just say I feel this Country being lost. We are allowing southern Countries to empty all their citizens into ours and then what expect us to house feed and care for them but we leave our Veterans and our own Citizens on the streets to fend for themselves without help. The “special interest aliens” are allowed to sleep inside police stations on the floor and use our police stations as their refuge and if any US Citizen was to do that we would be arrested. As these parents claim asylum and say they want a better life for their families they drag their kids across miles of desert and without food water basic necessities but we don’t arrest them or take their kids away we put them on a bus and allow them to live here in the freedoms that our Veterans fought for. I am all for wanting a better life but going about it the right way. If when we were struggling during the summer I had to use almost all my savings to replace the well inside and outside my Grandparents home before being told to leave there because my aunt wanted to sell it or whatever she changed her mind. Anyways if I didn’t and I had no running water or a roof over my kids heads then CPS would take custody of my kids. But these immigrants are not being held to the same standards as we are they are given more freedoms than us. We as a Country should be speaking up and stopping this open borders thing and sending them back to their Country and making them go through the regular process. They didn’t before because of reasons we don’t know and now they are just allowed to be here and we don’t take anything from them to track them or know them like pictures for facial recognition or dna samples and who knows who’s coming into here. Pedophiles Murders Rapists Criminals who are willing to break into homes and torture victims and take their stuff as their own. We have no idea. We just don’t know anything but we keep letting them in. Transport bus loads of them to different areas and open the bus doors and say bye that’s it. That is it. I can’t get housing assistance but they get stipends and freedoms to stay at police stations or any tax paid community building. It’s just awful. Are we expecting that we are going to all have to learn Spanish or are they going to learn our language and how are we supposed to school their kids we can’t even school our own kids or pay teachers what they deserve. Not to mention the rules that apply to us as parents who are US citizens don’t apply to these immigrants. As far as how have my political views changed well I just feel like politicians will do anything for votes even if it means lies or putting our citizens At risk but political views are not even relevant as long as we as a country don’t unite and make this stop. We can not care for our own people how can we force tax payers to pay for these “special interest aliens”? It’s just awful. We need to wake up and take a stand and be heard together as one. We are not going to be the majority soon as we continue to allow open borders.

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