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Christmas time and I was about to give up and then this happens…

Hello and let me first say thank you for taking the time to read my blog posts. So as you know we have been through some rough stuff over the summer and we have found a place to call home even though making my bills and the rent has been a struggle. Anyway we made it this far and still have a roof over our heads and that’s a blessing. With that being said Christmas is getting closer and I have received help from one of the multiple organizations I applied to. It’s so scary and stressful not knowing if the other places are going to pull through or if we just have to wait until Christmas Eve or something? So I went to return a outfit I bought at full price as it was now on super sale and I found a few clearance items and as I took them to the register to ask how much they all were and if anything additional came off the clearance price the cashier and I spoke about an agency that was helping her younger siblings who are foster children and she said how incredible these agencies are and the large gifts that they purchased for her siblings. Unfortunately I don’t live in their district so I couldn’t apply. But I was so pleased to hear how great another person or people were in making a strangers child have a wonderful Christmas Day. As we spoke of that I had to put all but one item aside because I just can’t afford it clearance or not. Well… there was a man picking up an online order for his wife and he said he would pay for the items I couldn’t buy. I couldn’t believe my ears. I’m still shaken and randomly cry at the kindness he showed me and without judgement. I started to lose hope in society and people in general because when we had no place to call home there just was no help at all for us. None. Being such an engaged mom and family I felt so let down by the system and how they just have no help for us who really need it. For a home. Not money but a place to feel safe and lay our heads at night and to keep warm and clean etc. But this man who was a stranger who didn’t have to do that DID!! How incredibly awesome was that!! I prayed for his family to have blessings and lots of love in their lives. He made me have that happy cry I so badly needed. I have to say that one gesture has restored a lot of hope I lost in society. Thank you to him for being so kind. I keep reminding my children that being together is what’s important during the Holidays and everyday. Spending time together laughing making memories is what’s important and we will eventually get our lives back the way it was and then we can have a big Christmas celebration one year. They agree but I know they believe that Santa is going to pull through and come for them. My son who’s 8 actually handed our letter to Santa to the postman and he’s sure Santa got it because the postman said he ABSOLUTELY delivers to Santa still. So he is sure Santa’s coming. I fight so hard to be the best mom I could possibly be and their little faces are all I can think about with Christmas right around the corner. Here’s hoping the other organizations I applied to will prevail and pull through this week for them before schools out and I will then have all four kids in tow all day and night leaving zero free time to pick up gifts for them. I’m going to end it there as this was just to say thank you so much to the gentleman at JC Penney and to those who have pulled through for us such as the homeless advocate at my kids school. Thank you for helping us this year I/We Appreciate you all!! I leave you all with a photo of my girls with Santa at school. Thank you again. Merry Christmas to all and I hope you all find yourselves together, healthy and safe this holiday season! Bless you all! Merry Christmas!!

Finally found a place to call home!! Well, for now anyways…

It took a lot of time and effort to find a place for the kids and I and having to go through all the process of finding a place was a lot too. Wondering how a person can fill out “applications” for a rental and knowing that you have a credit score above the required minimum put you in a whole new situation as an example>> so I filled out say three applications and each place has a bunch of applicants and they run mine and say four other families applications and each family has a different income bracket and different credit score well the owner/landlords go with the best prospective tenants and that just means if someone else has a higher income or credit score or both then your turned away and they are chosen but with that now your credit scores go down even if by a few points. I think the systems broken and the owners property managers shouldn’t be allowed to run multiple family’s applications at once they need to choose one and run theirs and if they meet the requirements then they get it hands down. Not whoever has the best scores etc. I’m really sorry but I just think the world and the way things HAVE to be done due to say bad tenants and slumlords and more has really messed things up. I recall when you just looked in the local paper and called the owner/landlord and made a time to meet and discuss the place and see it and if you liked it you paid first last and security and then they gave you the lease and you pay, sign and get the keys. I get why they do what they do but it’s not fair to be running credit scores and taking information from people like socials security information and DOB and stuff if you plan to process someone else’s application. I feel it’s taking our privacy away and there’s no other option but filling out an application Hopi because that your picked and you get the place for rent. It’s just strange to me that we have to do these applications even if we aren’t going to get the place. Just not right having to give out information that’s potentially able to be used or sold etc. our history and every question that a credit card company asks. Idk maybe it’s just me.

With all of that I’m happy to say we found a place near our old home and the school allowed my children to return to their home district because we were homeless or considered homeless during the start of the school year. We finally emptied out the storages which should help save money or have money to pay the rent each month. I’m still stressed how broken the system is and how these “SPECIAL INTEREST ALIENS” are given so much money and housing and other costs of living taken care of for them. I’m just floored that our Great Country has the resources to find housing for these people but the people who were born here can’t get into housing or any assistance for their family. I’m grateful to have found a place for my kids to feel safe, comfortable and call home for now. ONE DAY, ONE DAY we will have a home of our very own that no one can throw us out of because they want to sell all of a sudden. Stability is the most important key to my survival and keeping me stable in my life and to be able to be the best mommy I can be. Even though Dad he moved out and he is on his own we are settling in and getting a routine and structure again. Praise Jesus that we are stable for now. I don’t know how much longer we would have lasted with that extreme amount of stress and situation of displacement of course. I wish I knew my Aunt was going to change her mind and send me out before I spent my entire savings or most of it anyways repairing my Grandparents home to make it livable to some degree for my kids to be able to function and stuff there. Having to put in new well inside and out and all the pex piping and the water lines etc took about 85% of all the money I had saved to buy a home of our own. I have been wondering how is it a person can pay say $1200-$1500 a month in rent but they don’t “make” enough to pay say an $800-$1100 mortgage note? It’s just strange the way these things work. It’s really unfair. With that being said I’m happy to announce we have found a home for now. A place we are comfortable living in and have our things from storage and we are getting things back together again. Thank you all for reading my many venting blog posts. I appreciate you all. Now that in settling in I can have some time to spend writing about my new daily trials and tribulations. Have a wonderful weekend!

Feeling defeated AGAIN!!

Needless to say I am having zero luck finding a place for my family to live. I have looked at some places but am always turned down because of my income not being 3X the rent. The property owners do not take into account any assistance that I may get such as heating and electricity assistance. I guess they just know what the bills are typically for their units and calculate my income and say I will not have money to pay for food or water gas electric bills etc. I’m starting to feel like those on a fixed income that their income SHOULD Be at the very minimum what it costs today to rent a place to live. It’s unrealistic that all people are living on 3X the rent.

I’m going to say that no one is taking notice to this Country bringing in millions of immigrants and giving them ALL OUR RESOURCES and ALL the people who are rightfully here are not able to get help because there’s no funds left because Biden gave it all away to the people who have been coming from other Countries. I have to find a way for Congress to see how awful this Country has become and the lack of help for OUR OWN PEOPLE!! The USA IS FULL! We can’t help out our own citizens so we can’t help those from other countries either. The word truly needs to get out there. We aren’t going to see it or acknowledge it until it’s too late and we bring over all these people and then they are getting money cars and homes and it’s a matter of time before the behaviors they were or are used to from their home Countries comes out and we are being attacked from our backyard by all the people Biden paid to live here free. Seriously people WAKE UP!! THe time is NOW! We need to stop this. We need to get our own people the help they need and stop giving stipends and SS payments to those whom aren’t even born here. And if someone comes here from another country pregnant or is an immigrant and gets pregnant they should not be given status because they don’t belong here isn’t eh first place. I’m all for going through the motions for a Green card but not to come here for free or on the USA funds. Besides that if I am on the streets with my kids then I’m charged with negligence and CPS takes my kids away. Not to mention child endangerment etc but dragging babies and kids across miles and miles of desert without food or water is okay and here’s your STIPEND. NOPE!! This system is broken. We need to wake up and stop this now!! Seriously!! I’m so upset. I can’t get a single thing from any assistance office that I’m considering just going south with kids in tow and saying I’m also an IMMIGRANT SEEKING ASYLUM! I need that help too a home a car and money each month. Really!!

Backwards System

So I am waiting on some help for first and security because I don’t make enough to cover it on my income. Well, I spoke to the assistance office and they say because I can sleep at my Grams house even though I was told I have 30 days but I don’t have an actual eviction notice yet the assistance office wants me to stay until I get a court hearing for an eviction and THEN contact them for help! Idk I explained that’s why I moved from my last home of eight years because my LL (landlord) wanted to sell and gave me a notice to quit and not an eviction because I then couldn’t find a new place that would even consider taking me and my family with an eviction on my record even though I did nothing wrong. Once you have an eviction no perspective landlord would even look twice at my application. They just move on to the next application looking for a tenant that doesn’t have an eviction! Maybe I could find a slumlord but I may not? I don’t understand how they expect people to get into housing in short notice let alone with an eviction on their record?? This system is broken and backwards! Now waiting on a response from the place that is supposed to help I have a landlord holding a place for me and was told this place can take up to three MONTHS to send the money!! Who holds a place for 3 months? Who? Who even wants to wait that long? I just can’t with this insanity! But let’s bring immigrants over and house, feed, clothe, and medically assist them but allow all of the people who live here born here and those who have fought for us all to remain here safely live in tents or under bridges starving!! Let alone medical care!! I just can’t. Someone has to start fighting for people like me as I know there so many struggling people who can’t get a place to live or afford it. I just can’t even believe they demand I get an eviction before helping. I’m appalled by this backwards Country and what they do for us Citizens and what they ARE DOING for immigrants!!! Shame on them!! Vent over. Thanks for taking the time to read my rant… I appreciate it. Sincerely. Ty

City of the Future

How would you design the city of the future?

The city of the future for me would be filled with resources for people struggling. I would like to say that the new era of the digital world should have opened the doors for so many agencies to be able to help people and especially people from a distance since they can Video call and use the online portals to connect and communicate. I feel that the system is just broken. My children see all these people on YouTube wasting money on nonsense to make silly videos that get all the likes and subscriptions needed to make even more money and then they ask me why do they live in such a big beautiful home and how do they have the ability to buy every single X and do a skit on it online when we can’t even find affordable housing. Or housing at all for that matter. As a child your always going to be envious of others and want what they have or get what they have but it’s so unrealistic and upsetting. I even watch these things and often wonder how do we as a family relate to what they are doing or how they are living? We don’t! Just simple, we just don’t. I don’t even know why they watch it because we can’t possibly relate to having expendable money to throw away and we certainly are not ever going to get into a home slightly as nice as their let alone drive cars trucks vans or ride in planes and jets like they do. I tell my kids that they make money by spending money and they ask where did they get the money to spend to make it? I really don’t have a good answer for them other than they started off small and insignificant like we are and they worked their way to where they are today. Obviously my kids are young and they believe they can randomly throw a video on YouTube and they will get likes and shares and make a bunch of money and they are just young and don’t fully understand. With all of that being said, I’m sure my vision of the future relates a lot to my current existence and inability to find a home and resources for my family. Maybe one day we will not be in Such a bad spot and I can revisit this question but right now my vision is just having resources and those resources not taking so much time to go through and the LISTS your placed on not taking an eternity to get moved from one list onto the IN HOUSE WAIT LIST! It’s incredibly frustrating that families have to suffer so much in this Great Country because they/we should NOT have to suffer so tremendously and WAIT so long to get any relief or help. The damage it causes to your psyche and the damages it causes to you kids psyche is so overwhelming that it’s hard to think we shall eventually overcome this all. It’s just a shame that the American Dream is just not even a reality anymore or at least not a close reality for me or for a lot of families and we/they may never enjoy that American Dream of owning your OWN home and small piece of land that you can call your very own. It’s just an awful feeling realizing that is not going to happen for my family or the family of others. Just an actual shame. Then to go into any gas station or convenience stores or donut shops or many other businesses and see that so many people aren’t even born into having the American Dream but yet they have it the day they arrive here. Why can’t those whom live here and are born here have that opportunity too. We don’t because we don’t get the grants and tax breaks and incentives that those whom are considered aliens to the great USA get. I’m sorry I’m just so upset that my kids and I have to suffer so intensely for so many months and nothing is improving as each time I start to lift my head something worse breaks or goes wrong. It’s just a traumatic experience. With that being said I hope someone else’s view of the future world is beautiful and inspiring and I’m sorry mine is not. I’m just having such a difficult time and my kids are suffering because of this broken system and it’s hurtful. Hope everyone has a better day than my days have been. May you all be blessed and live your best self and life!!!

Abandoned

I’m not really sure how much harder this has to get before God feels I hit rock bottom. But even after we were turned away from the shelter I tried to get us signed up for yesterday I returned to where we have to live until the 1st and my NOW EX packed up his things and Abandoned Us. I just feel like when things got the hardest he decides to up and leave. We would’ve been together for 10 years in October. I will say this though because he left at such a time of desperation I am very stubborn and I will absolutely not take him back when I eventually fix everything and find a place etc. he will have to remain wherever it is he has gone to. This is completely unacceptable. It will be some time before I can get him on support for our children but as it stands the kids and finding a home for us to live in is my only REAL concern and Priority right now.

Homeless in three days…

Well needless to say I’m now in a position where my whole life is changing and not for anything better. I have four kids under 8 and we have called and reached out to every single place that I could to get some help and everything is wait lists long and many lists are closed. I was specifically told that the only way for me to get on specific lists is if we are physically staying at a shelter. Therefore it looks like we will be going to a shelter until we find a place that is a grand or less a month. I also can’t understand that all the rentals want me to fill out an application and they want to run my credit (which is good) but they are saying that we can still not be given the place. That to me seems backwards. I feel like they shouldn’t be able to run my credit unless they plan to rent me the place as long as my credit is good of course. Because if each place runs my credit then it’s going to go down because of all the hard pulls looking at it. It’s just not right to me. I couldn’t begin to describe how devastating this has all been. Then being so hot because it’s summer my a/c went in my van and my kids are all hot and miserable and it just makes matters so much worse. Anyone else out there in my position, you ARE NOT ALONE. I often feel so alone in this world and that these things couldn’t possibly happen to others all in the same time frame as they seem to happen to me but trust me I thought I was at the bottom and then I was rear ended and the driver took off and at that moment I said I wouldn’t ever say again that it couldn’t be worse because it certainly could be worse. It can always get worse. Praying we are safe at shelters and on the streets navigating through these tough times. We are going to start driving in the morning and hope we end up in a good place that we can start over and find a place to rent until everything begins to get better. I will again update after the weekend is over. Hoping with great news!!! I’m praying for all those in my situation and those whom are suffer like us. Let me add that we were turned away at the local shelter they don’t have room for us and the shelter worker lady has a dog she brings to work daily and she was making a point to say how she brings her dog to work every day and how my kids are scaring her dog. So we can’t stay there either. Just a long day.

I’m sorry, I missed a post Monday

I’m writing late because my whole world seems to be spinning out of control. Long story sort of short… My landlord of 8 years all of a sudden decided to sell my home and I had to move out asap because I couldn’t buy it fast enough. We had a ten year verbal lease so because of the verbal part there was nothing I could do legally to stop this process so to avoid eviction I just moved out. I had gone to a storage facility and rented two storage units for my house belongings. I was able to secure a temporary short stay at my grandparents home because it was empty since they passed away and now since I began fixing up their home and staying here my family has decided they want to buy it and I have to move out asap. Having four kids in tow at all times is not easy for me but I am in desperate times and we have to find a place in FIVE DAYS! I have called every single assistance agency and looked at thousands of places for rent. If you don’t make 3X the rent in income you can’t even apply for the properties. I only make half that amount and all the subsidized housing places have extensive wait lists. I’m just beyond desperate and stressed and becoming increasingly depressed because I have to keep my kids in a home and finding this is a big challenge for me to do. I wanted nothing more than to move to South Georgia or north Florida to be closer to my sister but at this point in time I can’t move there because I can’t find a place for us to live from here and like here all places require 3X the rent. The only bonus is I am on the list for housing in Florida but that can take FOUR YEARS I was told. I have started looking at shelters for women and children too even though that would prove to be extremely difficult having two kids with disabilities. But that’s where I am at today. Things just seem to be spiraling out of control. I feel like I have a black cloud and can’t catch a break. Looking for the light at the end of this dark tunnel…..

Introduction

Hello! My name is Adriana. I would like to Thank You for visiting my site and reading my thoughts and life stories and I hope that my experiences and circumstances will help you and others feel you/they are certainly not alone. I often think the things that happen to me, as often as they happen, couldn’t possibly happen to others but I have found that my experiences are not as uncommon or unusual as I once believed. I am a mother to six children two of whom are teenagers and I will not mention. I will often speak of my youngest four children who are ages 8, 6, 4 & 2. Out of the four my oldest and youngest are boys and both middle children are girls. Two of my children have ADHD and ODD (my 8 year old son and my 4 year old daughter). Being a mother is certainly a blessing! But with that being said at times it can be so difficult to just manage the day to day. The days begin very early and seem to feel like they are so long even though I know that this will one day all be a fleeting memory of when my kids were small. I do my best to try and appreciate these days since I know they don’t last forever. Trying to balance everything often feels like I’m treading water against the tide and getting absolutely nowhere. I will certainly be discussing the difficulties of having children with ADHD and ODD, homelessness, depression, anxiety, loss, and the struggles of advocating for yourself and your children and really just trying to navigate the world with them and for them. That’s to come later on as time moves forward. I am happy to have you here as I share my trials, tribulations and life with the world.